overslept again
damnit
oh well, nvm
met up with earthworm during 1st break
went booklink blah blah =)
bought drink, heh, cause i need that bottle for school everyday -__-
wanna buy 1 water bottle just for school use, but
ahhh, forget about it
went for talk with chao ah lian xue wei, zhi yan and lu lu
zhi yan damn sexy today arh
and meet bao bao for lunch
heh
and lastly~
met 2- some to go home together =)
i was emo ba i guess
but she never fails to make me smile
and she made me laugh like mad just now -__-
shit you, heh
but thanks 2- some
someone told me i have only 2 burdens in hand
and they are family and studies
but i dont know why
the burdens just seem so heavy
dont tell me i think too much again
dont tell me anything
i think my mind has been feeling confused
i need a break, a rest
if can, i wanna leave singapore
i really want to rest
people change
maybe when people say i didnt change is probably cause i wanna be the ying they knew
but i guess, sometimes it didnt work
i am childish i think
i am not strong enough
i tend to rely on people too easily
i feeling useless and dumb
i feel troubled, seriously
i need to be alone, and stay quiet
everything is as per normal, school and school and school
i need to study hard, i need to be strong, i need to do everything that benefits my loved ones and myself
i need to stay happy, but sometimes i really cant
i told myself, if there are burdens, let me carry them alone
and now, i declare
i will be strong and carry them by myself
i want my loved ones to be happy and healthy
but sometimes i cant give them the happiness they supposed to have, i am useless
i think already
even if i dont feel happy, it doesnt matter anymore, that will be my own problem, and at that moment, i just wanna be alone
give me the definition of loved ones
and i know i cant possibly want them to stay by my side forever
someone told me something, and i thought, i can only trust a person 100%
and that person is myself
you know you are so much so important to me
sometimes i think a lot, cause i really care
can you feel it?
i love you
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