and should i even be happy that 2009 is coming?
a brand new year is nothing but a change from 2008 to 2009
tell me
where are the differences,
when sadness are gonna follow you still whenever you go
when happiness cant seem to last forever
and what's so fun about kua nian for those mediacorps?
there're nothing but attracting attentions and wanting to earn higher shou shi lu
but a brand new year........
means..............
i'm 1 year older, 20 next year already
what should i expect?
i think, a birthday celebration will not be necessary
its time for me to be more and more mature,
be happier, cry lesser,
at least reward myself a little for becoming a 20 years old lady?
i gave loved ones at least something special for their birthdays
and even if i expected much for my birthdays
it seems normal
so, i shall not give much thoughts about my birthdays
let it be, it will end after 24 hrs
nothing special, never
humans' hearts and minds are complicated
you will never know what they're thinking
you will never know when they will backstab you,
or even hurt you badly
ying,
be as strong as you can be,
be happier,
cry lesser,
more mature,
grow up
i believe next year will be another challenging year
where i've got the last year of poly to fufil,
where i know the person i love will be physically gone to a place far from me
i dont need consoles,
i need understandings,
how nice would i be,
if i only need to cry once
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