cold night; cold heart,
it seems like everything is cold;
goodbyes; i dont dare to bid goodbye;
its a cruel night,
a night to face realities;
the facts that i never thought will come looking for me;
i cried till my heart aches, my head aches,
and still, hurt;
its like a kid being abandoned on the streets, crying and look for mummy,
that helpless feeling;
i'm feeling that way,
helpless till i can only cry and cry,
some facts hurt simply too much, too much till my heart cant take it;
but i'm still surviving to feel hurt, and it will continue,
till my heart dies;
i'm left with memories,
i'm left with things that will remind me of memories;
i'm left with my own shoulders to lean on,
my own hands to wipe my own tears,
my own voice to comfort myself,
my own strength to walk this path;
i will be away,
i am not emo,
i am simply facing something that took my mind, heart and soul away;
i will be away, to find them back,
even if i cant find them back, i will still be alive;
till then,
i no longer know how to truly smile;
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