on the 7th june of darling and my 6years6months anniversary, he had to fly off back to his home in thai alr, forever. many many times of separations with him like this for the past 6years, for periods like weeks or even months, we've been through together. everytime of letting him go, i have to find that courage to make me do so. but this time round, it seems harder. cause its no longer separating for weeks or a few months, its no longer him coming back to singapore and spend large amount of time with me 24/7. we're talking about real separation, a long- distance relationship. a man who love, care and dote on me so much, someone who we'll stayover at each other's house to spend quality time together, someone who taught me so much, someone who always protect me whenever anything happens, is leaving me physically. and now, i've got to learn how to live life in singapore without him. its not easy at all, cause almost everywhere i go, including my room, are full of memories of him and me. we both know for our love, we will do it. yes, we will :') i dont expect anyone to understand, not even my close ones, cause none experienced what i just experienced. but i thank you for those care and concerns.
the last meal we had, before departure.
on the 8th june, when my whole family went hospital to visit my grandma. many people were there, some even cried. the thought of grandma breathing so hard, lying on the bed without the capability of doing anything, in coma since the time we visited her till the time we left, makes me heartache so much. no matter how much we talked to her, she just wouldnt open her eyes. i still remember the last few times when i visited her, she was alr sufferring, and the very last time before these few times i visited her, she was better. i know sometimes when i visit her, she would ask me to eat more, drink more, but those voices of hers wont be here anymore.
on the 9th june, recieved the news that grandma's gone. and when my grandpa recieved the news too, he suffered a relapse, and followed her during the night.
on the 10th june till 15th june, i've been busy with funerals. nobody would be in a worse situation compared to my uncle, who's not in a healthy state. seeing his own parents like this, and he cant do anything. he used to be so cheerful, playful, and i remembered in the past when he went dating with aunty, he would bring me and my bro along when we were very young. seeing him like this, dont make me feel good at all. i cant imagine the time when i no longer have to go grandma and grandpa house to visit anymore.
things wasnt going smoothly ever since the last day of my exam. separations one after another. i feel so tired. on a happier note, the things that cheer me up would be the upcoming ying.sam's 7th getaway to bkk, the get- together with cousins at the funerals, the care and concerns from family, relatives, darling, and friends and nevertheless, euro with darling :) been watching euro, and also staying up till around 5am for it, and also been managing and using darling's bet account for our bets. as a soccer fan since 2002, i witnessed alot of legend players who are irreplaceable. legend players like luis ronaldo, ronaldinho, roberto carlos, figo, raul, van histerooy, beckham, zidane, henry etc play beautiful football, compared to players now who somewhat play for money. since my usual supporting team, brazil obviously not in euro, i would definitely be cheering for england or germany, with my soccer idol steven gerrard in england, and the many young talents in germany. i'm not one of the girls who watched soccer cause of hot guys? no, definitely not. i'm a genuine soccer fan since 2002 who used to play soccer too :) and i really hope england or germany can prove to me something especially england whose standards are no longer like in the past. i really wanna see the push from england.
a very very long update indeed :) not to forget the meet- up with my somey on the 15th june night for dinner at ambush, and followed by coffee bean for our chill and chit- chat sesson :) still loving this girl as always.
and also meet- up with my dearie on the 16th june night for dinner at borshch and then over to nex to shop for stuff. loving my dearie as always too, and loving her for being so nice by buying stuff for me from her taiwan trip. thanks dearie!
of course, today's father's day, and we had our usual family steamboat except for the fact that darling's not here. i love you papa, forever my hero.
my 3rd bkk with darling a.k.a our 7th getaway together tom. cant wait for you to drive me around for good food, massage, shopping spree, movie spree etc :) and of course our euro together in hotel just like that time for world cup! cant wait to see you darling! and darling was telling me whether i wanna postpone my flight cause his new car wont arrive tom, lol! but i'm really fine with it, i dont mind sitting in his usual car, hehe :) enough said alr, such a long post :D